Why I CHOSE Addiction..

I don’t blame trauma. I don’t blame society. I don’t blame my past. In this video, I’m talking about the truth no one wants to admit: I chose addiction. Taking ownership of that choice was the only thing that actually saved my life. From fearing stability to finding a twisted comfort at rock bottom, this is the raw psychology of self-sabotage and the "addiction to chaos" that kept me homeless and strung out for 14 years. This isn’t polished. It’s the side of recovery we usually keep in the dark. HUMANIZE THE STRUGGLE: 🔗 Resources & Community: https://Linktr.ee/Outsiders_Anonymous 📺 Subscribe for the raw truth: https://YouTube.com/@spencer_brooks_otto 📱 Instagram: https://Instagram.com/hardknockgospel 🎵 TikTok: https://TikTok.com/@hard.knock.gospel 🔗 Newsletter: https://outsidersanonymous.substack.com/ I’d love to connect with you 1-on-1. Message me on IG or TikTok to talk! TIMESTAMPS: 0:00 The Choice vs. The Disease 0:30 Fear of Stability (The Trap of "Normal") 1:35 My Comfort Zone was Rock Bottom 3:00 Addicted to the Drama & Chaos 4:30 Taking Ownership to Get Free #whyichoseaddiction #addictionrecovery #spencebrooksotto #addictionstories #homelessness #humanizethestruggle