My meaning of life [Original song]

Well ... it 's my first attempt at songwriting, song that I sang on my mobile phone while my parents were away for a short time x), I would probably sang this song again later after being more professional. also, english isn't my native tong tho, so it should probably sound weird, that was difficult as fucc to sing ghhh... and i'm not good at editingggg (the reverb on my voice oof) https://audiomack.com/kaelle-2 Lyrics : (available in english and french on the video) first verse : I once was a child full of ambitions, thinking that my existence had some kind of purpose ; My head was full of ideas and I really thought that my life was already traced, that I will become the person I dreamed to be. I didn't realised that talent was found every -where, and that millions if not billions of people was thinking the same ; That I was nothing more than a little stain in a huge universe, and that my existence wouldn't change anything. pre-chorus : And time flies and passes, every second bringing us closer to an inevitable death ; Memories move away and fades, giving us the feeling that existence is an illusion. chorus : Years after years, I didn't achieve a fraction of what I hoped to achieve in my life, Hours after hours, I contemplate the wall waiting for a sudden boost of motivation ; Will I wait until my last years, old woman on my deathbed, regretting all the time I wasted, my pathetic worthless human life? second verse : I should believe in some kind of religion, cradling me in the illusion that my acts would have a meaning ; that they will have a repercussion on a beautiful afterlife, that I will become a perfect version of myself. I should bathe myself in sweet lies, that my short life is nothing more than the prequel to an never-ending one ; where I could be finally able to understand the meaning of life, where all of my doubts will finally disappear. Pre-chorus But the idea of an eternal life is creepy, as much as the idea of not longer existing ; Isn't there any other option, than a tragedic theatral conclusion ? Edgy interlude : Sometimes I ask myself why wouldn't I just end it all right now ; Why keep trying to move forward in life, if the ending will be the same anyway. final chorus : What is our purpose, on this immensely huge universe where we are so insignifiants, Is there a reason, of our presence on this earth where we all wander aimlessly ? But actually, our role is for us to define as we are all important in our own way, Everyone is, in their own way, a unique combinaison that makes this world interesting; And I will leave my mark here, on my inner universe, Proof that a day existed, my precious egocentric human life. and voilà